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So Many Emotions...

So here we are in Nebraska... Eric is getting worked up to be listed here as well as at the University of Iowa.  We have been very impressed so far at our 2 days of appointments and we have 3 more; tomorrow as well as Tuesday/Wednesday next week.

The fund-raising efforts continue and we have been so amazed at the support from so many as well as gestures that to some may not seem huge but to us mean so much.  An offer to come change Eric's oil, a night at a hotel so we didn't have to drive the entire way in a day and money/gift cards for gas and food along the way.  To us, these are such kind and amazing acts of kindness that make our hearts full of gratitude that some are willing to give of themselves to help us.

In an appointment today, Eric pointed out the reflection that it took us so long to ask for help, because in our respective careers we are the ones that fix issues...not the other way around.  All of this is amazing and overwhelming in a way that we know no words or gestures can repay.  But we will make every effort to pay it back, and forward in the years to come.

This journey has been the toughest we have been through.  There are emotions of fear of what is to come, hope for what we will be able to do when Eric's gift of a second chance at life will give us and optimism.  But there is also sadness to know that another family has to endure pain and tragedy to help Eric and others through the gift of donation.

This month happens to be Donate Life Month...oh what it would mean to get THE CALL this month.  We are ever so diligent to spread the awareness for organ donation and the importance of registering and making your wishes known to those you love.  We have met so many amazing people in person, via Facebook as well as following others who have who have either gotten their gift or are waiting, or even know they will travel this one day.  Anyone who has or is experiencing this wait has an enduring spirit and a FIGHT attitude, there is no other way.  We have talked to others who have lost people from their lives while on this journey and I guess we have too.  There is no reason or fault to say why, other than this is a difficult path.  It takes a special understanding to make it through, and a sense of humor and a positive attitude.  Fear of the unknown is a great power.

We follow others and know their journey is difficult, some far more difficult than ours.  And I hope and pray that their stories end well because we ALL deserve our happy ending.  Yet that is a fear for me, knowing Eric may get sicker before the call comes.  But I have faith and hope that his spirit will get him through it.  There were tough days in the beginning when we didn't know where things would go, but we muddled through laughing, crying and fighting, and we are stronger on the other side for it.

So in this blog, I send my best to all we know who are fighting a battle of their own...physical health, emotional/mental strife, personal struggle and people traveling on a journey they maybe never envisioned they would be one.  NO one chooses this or any fight, but we tackle it head on, and together, that's a win!!!

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