Forgive me if this is a bit all over the place. I have wanted to write something for a while but have many thoughts. I will do my best to put them together in a manner that makes sense.
To most, spring break means time. Time to have off work or school, time to go on vacation, time to be. Growing up, I never really knew what spring break was because I was in a small town going to a Catholic school. We had Easter break but that was all and that was a time to just be with family. There were no trips, no breaks, just being who we were with an extra day off school if we were lucky.
Then college came and spring break for the first 3 years meant no classes but work for me. The last year of college meant a vacation with friends that I loved and a break from here.
Flash forward to now...I don't have kids so no school breaks to be had yet I work in a school where they have a spring break. It still means work for me normally but every year it seems to mean more. There is always the chance for time with those you love and if you are lucky enough to get a "spring break" take advantage of it. I love seeing pictures of people on break and it makes my heart happy. What saddens me is when people get the chance to have a break and don't make the best of it whether they are home or away...or complain that something isn't quite right. You are with the ones you love most whether the weather is perfect or the food is cooked just right.
Now I don't write this to get the "pity me" response. Our break was in the hospital waiting for Eric's new heart and he is doing great. I managed to surprise him (at least until a few days before so he didn't set off his heart monitor) because someone he admired and watched on YouTube was coming to visit.
And we absolutely make the most of what we have. I bring food whenever I can so he has a "home cooked" meal. And there are things that surprise and both sadden me.
We have had people in our lives, that we have known many years and sometimes talked to infrequently who have been amazing. Helping with the fund-raising and asking to send meals or gift cards to buy food. Then we have had people in our lives for some time who have pulled back for various reasons we may never know.
I know the unknown is scary...WE LIVE IT EVERYDAY. And I get feeling fear for us and what this journey does can be tough. But to have people we love not know how to respond is hard.
And that is why we bond even harder. We are on this incredible journey and we deserve this chance for a second chance at life.
We can't wait for a break but that will have to come later. Yes we have been told we can leave. Yes we have been told that "leave time" has to be within a 6 hours drive. But when we can make the most of a break wherever we are together, why wait. We can laugh together wherever we are!
I used to not like being home alone, always needing to be around people. Then I met the one I was supposed to meet...I still don't like being here without him, but I love the home that we have made together. And making this home great and protecting it so he can come home to it with me is so important right now.
So I guess my underlying message from this rambling is...MAKE THE MOST OF EVERY DAY!!! Tell those you love that you love them. Never miss a chance to make those you love laugh. And if you want to help someone you love...SAY IT. Make sure they know you are there whenever you can be. Silence is painful...especially for the person waiting to here they mean something!
To most, spring break means time. Time to have off work or school, time to go on vacation, time to be. Growing up, I never really knew what spring break was because I was in a small town going to a Catholic school. We had Easter break but that was all and that was a time to just be with family. There were no trips, no breaks, just being who we were with an extra day off school if we were lucky.
Then college came and spring break for the first 3 years meant no classes but work for me. The last year of college meant a vacation with friends that I loved and a break from here.
Flash forward to now...I don't have kids so no school breaks to be had yet I work in a school where they have a spring break. It still means work for me normally but every year it seems to mean more. There is always the chance for time with those you love and if you are lucky enough to get a "spring break" take advantage of it. I love seeing pictures of people on break and it makes my heart happy. What saddens me is when people get the chance to have a break and don't make the best of it whether they are home or away...or complain that something isn't quite right. You are with the ones you love most whether the weather is perfect or the food is cooked just right.
Now I don't write this to get the "pity me" response. Our break was in the hospital waiting for Eric's new heart and he is doing great. I managed to surprise him (at least until a few days before so he didn't set off his heart monitor) because someone he admired and watched on YouTube was coming to visit. And we absolutely make the most of what we have. I bring food whenever I can so he has a "home cooked" meal. And there are things that surprise and both sadden me.
We have had people in our lives, that we have known many years and sometimes talked to infrequently who have been amazing. Helping with the fund-raising and asking to send meals or gift cards to buy food. Then we have had people in our lives for some time who have pulled back for various reasons we may never know.
I know the unknown is scary...WE LIVE IT EVERYDAY. And I get feeling fear for us and what this journey does can be tough. But to have people we love not know how to respond is hard.
And that is why we bond even harder. We are on this incredible journey and we deserve this chance for a second chance at life.
We can't wait for a break but that will have to come later. Yes we have been told we can leave. Yes we have been told that "leave time" has to be within a 6 hours drive. But when we can make the most of a break wherever we are together, why wait. We can laugh together wherever we are!
I used to not like being home alone, always needing to be around people. Then I met the one I was supposed to meet...I still don't like being here without him, but I love the home that we have made together. And making this home great and protecting it so he can come home to it with me is so important right now.
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